Here I Am

okay, guys,.,,,

back again.. first of all i must say i'm truly sorry if i've already disputed my promise to write down the problems in my school and another problems that filled my mind before... but, on the other hand i see no any plausible reasons to write it here because i can't get any pleasure from writing those extra trivial...

Okay, why do i write now?? it's simply because
1st. I want to express my greatest gratitude for all of the chances that 'HIM' already given me these past 2 years
2nd. I want to explore what's my weakness, what's our weakness so even if we put much effort we can't catch up

Frankly speaking, i myself didn't really know what to do in these bizarre weeks when a debate competition will be held in the purpose of choosing some best speakers from each teams in my island.. BALI... that will be trained and coached of joining the NSDC *in retrospect is National School Debating Competition in the scale of Indonesia* of course lah~

With this small amount of time i felt sooooo excited.. but it's just happened to be my nature or what.. i can't feel my debate spirit from before... i don't know why.. although i've been trying to claim and prove some cases in my debate but, still i can't feel the enormous pumping from my soul that i usually get from debating~.. i wonder why is that happening???
and moreover,, why is that happening in this time, when i really want to show my guts to make some people not disappointed anymore *not that i've done a bad thing,, just my will

This competition is a huge competition overall~ i've been learning about all things though i've just being so silly when it comes to read and search for as many informations as i can in various medias..
All i can do now is pray, listen and keep going forward with my capability although i feel something blocked my way right to the summit...

and FYI, i've through what my school called "SAT" and i though it was indeed a dwelling record for my class :P..
anyway,, a lotta big work waiting for me and a lotta informations that wait me to find them~ so...

after a long prolonged story.... i'll say.. wish us luck and wish me luck....i'll try my best and nevertheless....i can't thank u enough... all guys, all families that give me a whacking support everytime......thank u...

Sincerely,
Yura...

I Told u So..

okay... guys, being raised in a cockamamy living habits made me kinda blunt.. but not too shabby actually just.. blunt...

My School is S*CK! i regretted all these few days i've been wanderin over and over about a thing that was so special to me but, guys.. i don't believe it my school still not showing any moves!!! it's irritating me so damn right!

i've been thinking about how the other schools action about this kinda thing and, i knew they all are trying their best, working to their hardest breath.. but us??? my school?? this school that i've already entrusted with my future still haven't shown any necessary moves..=.="

well that was my confession overall,,,
because i don't know what should i do to express this sorrow~ furthermore, basically i won't tell u guys about the 'thing' that i talked bout but,, since it was already known by some peoples ~ i'll tell u..

this 'thing' is the NSDC preparation.. there's no any announcement from my school yet about that kinda thing although the leader of the English project said that our school really admires this.. so why?.. sigh...

speechless.. that is my condition right now.. being pulled in this kind of chaotic mind while having some dreadful exams tomorrow makes me want to scream... screaming out loud that nobody could hear a shitty spills from it...

FYI, the materials for the exam tomorrow were so umm.... mean*if i could use this adj. :P
1st Japanese.. 2nd History... 3rd Chinese.. Brrr...*suddenly i feel cold.. :P

Even though i've learned Japanese and Chinese before in my life, still.. with this mind full of hazardous hatred it's difficult to learn all the materials with just some hours before i go to sleep~

And,, yeah i know it's useless but, instead of studying, i kept watching Big Bang Theory to please my hatred lol and for your record Big Bang Theory is a TV show in America that is hilarious lol~ it makes me laugh every time just remembering the section of the shows~ :P

well i guess that's all for today..

seeya in my next post
sincerely, Sekichi Yura :P

Whut?.?

Okay,, again,, it have been 5 or 7 days i never opened this blog :P
and now i'll update it,, yeah!~ *not so mad :))

Anyway... i'll just skip my school anniversary and school problems here... coz now i just want to say something not too general..

I'm attending SAT now *in retrospect is Semester Academic test if u're following my blog from the start.* okay.. now because i'm in the language class,, strictly saying i didn't feel any much pressure from this exam.. i didn't know why or how?? but i think it just because of.. umm... maybe nature?? lol..

well back again.. i'm still a lil' bit confuse though coz' the math materials that i will faced tomorrow but again.. there's no stress at all, i just followed it happily and without any  uncertainty.. even though the English exam that i filled this day was.. err... difficult.. *thanks 2 sentong cuh!

some peoples said that i have much confidence in my self.. but seriously.. i never establish something like that in the first place...it just flew through my vein like anything was never happened :P...

Okay... i think this nonsense stopped at this point...

i think i'll getting ready for tomorrow's math Exam ^^ so,, see you

Passion..

okay,,, here we go again,,

first of all i'm sorry if i don't write the post that i promised to u guys before,,, but here,, i just want to express my bored,betrayed,regretted and all desperate feeling i had in this past few weeks..

Okay.. huft..>.>

i still can't find my candle
in the dark night sky..
when all stars shattered and the moon shaded..

it just a glare..
a glare of jealous
a glance for the loser
when i knew it's all over

i sneak into the pit
imposing myself in a thorny road
and every time i move
the smell of my blood erode my life

these indeterminancy locked me
against all the chances that shining upon me
grasped my breath as soon as the light outshining

after all those days that i left behind
crossing all my useless time
it's just over with no impression...
it's just flew like the free wind from the hill..
erasing my naive imagination

fiuhh...
sedikit lega actually.. tapi yah mau gimana lagi.. hahahahaha*Ga-jelas

Oke deh,, bye.. gw cuma pengin nulis itu aja kok.. sorry klo ga menarik n buang2 waktu anda sbagai pembaca :P

Keep u'r Spirit ^^